Just a thought...well a few

So here are a few thoughts that may come off a little bitchy and dont get me wrong, I have had a great day. They are just some thoughts that have been roaming around my mind for a while. 

First is about friendship. 

I have only a few select people in my life that I can truly call my friends. The rest are basically acquaintances that wear fake smiles and are divided into a few different groups. There are the acu-friends that have been in my life for a very long time but truly dont give a shit about me and I'm pretty sure that they get some sick pleasure out of hurting me emotionally. Then, there are the acu-friends that are two-faced freaks. They are one way to your face and another way when other people are around. They play a great game but really they dont care about anyone but themselves and their own bullshit and will do, say, or act any certain way to get what they want when they want it. And, lastly there are the acu-friends called the users and abusers. They are a sneaky bunch of procrastinating, no showing, lame excuses making, heart breaking users whom probly dont have any true friends at all and just use use use you until there is nothing else then moves on to the next person and tries to act like your the one whom was the one using the other person. Nothing is ever their fault and nothing will ever be acceptable for them. I really hate people sometimes. 

Recently, I had to deal with a few of those acu-friends that started making me feel so horrible about myself and I had no reason to feel like that. I was without a vehicle and felt as though I just wasnt good enough to be hanging out with them. I had relationship problems so I wasnt good enough. I wasnt thin enough so I wasnt good enough. I just wasnt good enough and when we were in public together or other stuff was going on it was always a problem for them to be there. I was never introduced to people they ran into. And most recently I see how some people just pretend like they dont hear me at all. I know I have a loud voice and I know that I am not an idiot, so why in the hell are you not acknowledging the fact that I am speaking? It really really aggravates me. These women at school act  like we are back in junior high and play bs games but I refuse to be a part of it. If you want to keep me out of your little reindeer games and act like I am not speaking then I will just focus on my school work and kick ass way harder than you ever could. I have gone through a few friends since starting back in school, since I got pregnant and had my daughter, and since I moved here. I have awakened and seen the truth even when those that were around me wanted to put on a really good show. 

Another thing about friendship is that some acu-friends want to pretend like we are so tight and so close but refuse to ask anything of me. They dont tell me when stuff is going on in their life and then act like I did them a disservice when  they are really low and finally come to me and are like well wtf? Communication is key and no one wants to communicate. So when I am trying to communicate with them about what is going on in my life and ya know, confide in them they act as though what I am saying is so trivial. Like, why am I bothering them with such a tiny issue? Its not tiny, its my life. 

Okay more later, I am rambling and my munchkin is going to wake up soon =)

Random Late Night Thoughts

First, the new star trek movie is bad ass. I am someone who doesn't just run out to watch new movies (aside from like harry potter) so, I have never seen this and it is bad ass. I just watched these weird guys drop this scorpion looking thing down this guys throat. And lets talk about the whole volcan sleeper hold pinch thing. WOW! That would be so cool if it worked. However, you know some dumb ass would learn how to do and eventually it would end up being like a illegal act or something. 

Next, I seriously hate commercials about periods. Even the ones that are all like sarcastic and shit. I am a woman, I know what happens each month, I know that my blood isnt going to look 'blue' and for some weird reason when they do those demonstrations they cant use red liquid cause its gross but come the fuck on people! Its a natural thing that occurs with more than half of the whole population of the world. Get over it. I just hate the commercials. They are either too sarcastic or they are too unrealistic. Just be straight up about it. I was lucky to have a mom and a sister explain all the "woman-growing up" shit to me but others arnt. I have had friends who dont know how to use a tampon or were just never informed of anything. It sucks. Do some parenting yall so we dont have to have dumbass commercials that are retarded. 

OMG! HUGE BUG THING!!! UGH, thanks for the night mares tonight...seriously that thing was creepy as fuck but nothing beats those bugs that were in King Kong. Every single time I watch that movie I have to leave the room at that moment cause it seriously fucks me up. Mentally! I cant sleep correctly and for an entire week I am creeped out by every single bug I see. Have you ever watched a movie and just been broken in some way by what you have seen? Like you cannot do or say or watch something ever again in the same way because it just fucked you up? Comment and tell me about it. 

Last random thought of the night. I love being a mom. Even when the house is a total wreck and she isnt feeling well, I love being a mom. I love her with all of my heart and I understand now alot of which I hadnt when I was younger. 

Ive missed this so so much!!

When I say that I have missed this, I have missed this so SO so much! I know that some people go without internet all the time and I feel for them. I went without to make sure I could take care of my munchkin but I can now. I have missed this and I missed having my outlet. 

School has been going. I cannot say wonderfully because I would be lieing. There have been quite a few days where I have seriously been like I do not want to be here and I am going to beat these two faced-uptight-bitchy-bitches down! But! I am proud to say that I just wore my smile all through it and have made it all passed it. Let me tell you about my day, just today. 

It started out wonderfully, had a kick ass client that wanted layers in her hair. No biggie. I love doing layers and until recently (like two days recently) that is how I always wear my hair. I am good with layers. Not perfect but nobody is! I also was not aware that blonde hair takes layers differently. A senior student whom has an opinion for everything started questioning me infront of my client and then went and got the educator before I had a chance to and it was so embarrassing. But I finished off the rest of her hair perfectly and pulled my own help in from another senior student whom is so sweet and really willing to help whenever is asked of him. I still got a tip and another appointment with her and she really liked my work. My next client not so much. It was only my third wrap set ever and nothing worked right. Her hair was oily, wouldnt wrap right, and I had to call the educator over to help me with it because I didnt want to fuck it up. Which I hadnt. I guess I was just over thinking my work after that other unsettling moment. Thats when all hell broke loose though. 

I still had that wrap finishing up in the dryer when I was informed that my one o'clock was there and guess what? I didnt have a one o'clock! Some bitch switched her facial on to me so that she wouldnt have to do it. I will not refuse a client though so I was like well I still have a client in my chair give me abotu thrity more minutes. Thats when I fucked up my wrap and didnt brush it out correctly (it being my third only wrap ever) and had to have that somewhat know it all senior student help me with it. She ended up finishing the wrap set and let me get to the facial. The client that wasnt mine and I wasnt going to loose my day because of it. I had to go talk to the educator about it and ended up getting alot of props from all the other students who for some reason have had a problem with me. I did that facial and it was the best spa treatment I have ever given. She turned out to be a social worker and was seriously stressed out and needed the relaxation to the max. She is a regular and gets facials done almost twice a month and never falls asleep or relaxes to that extreme. She passed out! I felt so accomplished that I did such a good job. I even got a $15 tip! Shove that in that bitches face that turned down the facial and tried to be so fucking sneeky with that shit. I should have been informed and it was ridiculous but I still triumphed over that BS. 

Anyway, I know that was hard to understand but it was a rant I had to get out.

My munchkin is doing great and is about to move up to the next class!! Im so excited!!! She is growing so quickly! 

I am so excited that I can blog again but I am also very tired after this long eventful day. Ugh, tomorrow Ill try this again

Thankgod for blessings such as this!!! I finally got a new car!!! Well its new to me. Now Im free :-)