It is truly a rare find.....

Men like that dont exist anymore. 

They are to interested in swag and being lazy. 

Love stories just dont happen...

Probably because I am too bull headed to allow it to happen,

 to preoccupied with whats expected of me,

but I dream of a love like that.

A prince in shining armor, 

A man willing to accept all my qwarks

 without conditions, 

willing to accept my love,

ready to be a father, 

a husband,

 a provider,

 a lover, 

a friend. 

Not caught up with other situations, 

other women,

selfish needs, 

complications. 

I would give my all.

Im understanding, 

accepting, 

and low maintenance. 

Im not asking for a lot. 

Not needing you to sweep me off my feet, 

not needing you to rescue me, 

just needing something more than-

cheap thrills, 

a drive by, 

a weekend of regrets. 

I need a forever, 

cant be never, 

always longing,

work hard, 

play harder,

Notebook kind of love. 

That love is ancient, 

that love is lasting, 

that love has ups and downs, 

but downs are few and far between.

Its hours on the phone without a word,

but without distraction. 

Its without heart break, 

or  let downs. 

Its impossibly perfect in 

a very flawed 

elaborate way. 

Fairy tales could never 

get it right on the money,

could never grasp its whole

plethora of dynamics.

In short, 

the Notebook is BS. 

I am tired of seeing 

what I shall never have,

crying and thinking

how pathetic I am for doing so. 

No fairy tale is real,

Did you hear that?

Glass Shattered.