Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Because I just kept swimming

To look back and see
All of the things-
I once saw as obstacles 
scattered across my path,
To look back and realize,
they were just stepping stones 
Grains of sand-
in my shoe,
To look back, 
and see fully,
I am stronger than all of that!
To look back, 
all I see are bubbles!
-Because I just kept swimming!  

Today I reach my finish line,
to the beginning of the rest of my life,
Today I reach the start line,
to my over all goals and ambition,
Today I stroll down the red carpet,
with my head held high,
Today I commit
 the best of the seven deadly sins. 
Today I graduate! 
Completely full of PRIDE! 

Pride in myself,
Thanks for judging me.
Pride in my achievement, 
Why cant I boast,
Pride in my journey,
Because I just kept swimming,
Pride in my strength,
Still so much I cant comprehend,
Pride in my ability,
to which I had no clue,
Pride in you,
for helping me through,
Pride in my heart,
Because it always knew. 

Thankyou-
to all my haters,
for doing what you do best,
for showing me-
Im worth so much more,
than what you chose to see.
Thankyou-
to all my nay sayers,
to those asinine and pompous pricks,
to those lazy and depressed wastes of human flesh,
for telling me I cant, 
for trying to push your pessimistic bullshit on me,
for trying to weigh me down,
you gave me reason 
to prove you wrong!
You gave me chase,
to get the fuck away from you!
You gave me reason
to find my inner strength!
  
Truly thankyou,
to those blessed ones,
who never doubted,
never faltered,
never pushed a pessimistic thought,
thankyou -
to those who cared.
Thankyou-
 to my friends,
 my beyond true friends,
Thankyou-
my family to which they are-
my loves,
my lights,
leading me,
guiding me,
encouraging me,
inspiring me.

Thankyou to my munchkin,
my strongest and brightest
little light. 
You warmed my heart,
when it was cold,
you gave me chase
to run towards my dreams,
you blessed me,
you bless me, 
with every smile,
with ever laugh,
and even-
with every tear. 
You are my love,
my laughter,
my heart,
my soul, 
my dreams,
my inspiration,
my everything! 

Today I cross the finish line,
And today I cross the start line,
today I hold my head up full of pride 
and yet Im humbled by the thought. 
Today I graduate! 
Yes, 
Today I GRADUATE!!!!
All because I kept on swimming!  

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Graduating!

Yesterday was my last day working in the salon as a student. I seriously cried, once I got into my car and was all by myself. It was a huge milestone. I have actually almost completed something all on my own and just for me. I am graduating on 9/25, thats only eight days away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Three days in the salon, two days in the classroom, and one weekend and thats it. All I have to do is take my actual state board exam and my hiv/aids course(which is two hours online LOL) and I am freaking done!!!!!!!!!!
I have thought about going back for massage therapy, continuing my education and adding more licenses onto my already rocking cosmetology license. I am aiming for the moon and reaching the stars. Its fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just have to find another school that I want to go to. I truly wish that Regency offered more than just cosmetology, I would never leave. LOL! 

On a different note I am fucking livid right now over something else entirely.
I will write more later when I have a cooler head.