Another short and sweet update on my crazy beautiful and fucked up life.
I was working two jobs and trying to squeeze in time for my munchkin. Then, all hell broke lose. My ceiling started flooding my house, a tooth that Ive been needing to get worked on finally literally put me to my knees (and no I still havent gotten it worked on), and my main job was just far to stressful. I completely reached my breaking point and resigned. All of the bullshit, all of the constant policy changes, all of the stress over preventing loss for a company that will not admit or equip people to deal with the true reason of loss...it all just wouldn't stop. It wouldn't let up. It was too much and not worth the stress and heartache at the loss of time with my munchkin. She has become such an out of control kid. There is no excuse for that.
I loved my career but I love my child more and that is the sacrifice and choice that a mother must make. And, I dont regret it. I will admit the stress of being able to pay all my bills this month has seriously got me freaking out. However, I am trying to stay positive. Applications at a million and a half other places and if I wasnt feeling like complete shit tonight I would be working at my second/only current job.
I do have an offer to work as a personal assistant but at the same time I probably would lose the valuable time with my munchkin too.....
So..
Options....Options....Options....
Go back to college..
Actually use my cosmetology stuff...
I am going to rest up tonight and then go and check in with a few colleges tomorrow...
Maybe check into armed guard positions...
Update my licenses....
Apply to a million and one more jobs...
OH! And in my self destructive ways...I took $40 of my last pay check and got a tattoo...
A friend did it. Its easily a $300 or more tattoo..not even finished with the shading and color but its pretty bad ass!!! Pic Below!!!!
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