the stars

Hello everyone! 

So, here I am sticking to my resolution to write more again. 

Today has been an eventful and blissful. 

This morning we went out to this clothes closet to get warm winter clothes for my munchkin and I must say people here in Colorado are some of the nicest people I have ever come in contact with. They ended up giving us two big bags of jackets, hoodies, wool socks, gloves, a blanket, robes, and even a long trench coat for me. 

After that I have to admit, I am thoroughly addicted to Chilis chicken enchilada soup. I have tried several times to make it at home and it just doesnt come out the same. You know when you eat something and its just so yummy, you want to even lick the whole damn bowl and if no one was watching....you totally would. Yes, I am that way with this soup. 

On a different note, my munchkin is driving me absolutely nuts with this whiny thing she is going through. Every other sentence is in a crying ish tone even when there is absolutely no reason, even irrationally, to be any kinds of upset. I know that a move can be hard on children, hell I did enough of it as a child myself, but this phase is really testing my patience. Ever since I had her its like my patience level was raised to a ridiculous level, in which she would never be able to reach, or so I thought. I never want to loose my cool with her. I never want to be that mom that cannot talk to her child without yelling or threatening to put them in time out, get a spanking, or be grounded. I fully believe that I should just be able to talk to my child. I hate yelling. And, currently, the only way to get her to do anything-LITERALLY ANYTHING, is to yell. That, or to get down on her level and threaten that we will have to go home or that she will be getting a spanking because she wont stop talking back, flat out saying she doesnt have to do whatever she is told to do (even if its as simple as to get in the car), or just says the same sentence over and over and over and over and over and over....Its very testing. I know full well that she is just that age and phases happen like this especially with drastic changes like this but geez it tests a mommy's strength and level head. 

Another topic change, lets talk about time changes....UGH...right now it is about 7pm and to me it feels like its almost 10pm. There is a two/three hour time gap between here and Florida and it is kicking my ass. Anyone know any remedies to help with the  jet lag?? The only thing that helped this morning was a good dose of B12 and then a caramel white chocolate espresso that was gone in literally five minutes. 

I know it didnt help that I was up very late last night talking to my kilt wearing rockstar till about midnight. I had no idea we were even talking that long until he told me when his phone went off. Its an amazing feeling to have someone to truly communicate with again. I dont feel like I have to hide anything about myself, no censoring...Its weird. I am free and yet I am kind of terrified because this has all been so fluid and freeing...Its about damn time I know but it is also shocking.  

Well...more later