Fat and back, 600 lb life

I have to honestly say that some shows really really piss me off and some blogs that I read are just absolutely ridiculous. I have been big all my life but I've always prided myself on being athletic and when I see people who are so just horribly out of shape, over weight, ready to give up on themselves, and they cry because they can't even walk around the grocery store because they're 600 pounds and they can't figure out all they just need to stop eating this food; it pisses me off. When did we become so lazy and so dead set on surgery is the only way to stop ourselves from being so f****** fat? When I gained all my weight and it was from honestly my body shutting down I didn't just resort to I need to just have surgery, I started kicking myself in the ass and I worked out really hard. I stopped eating the s*** that everybody eats all the time. I stopped eating all of this processed food and pre-made food and started making my own food again and even though my daughter is also a bigger girl she's also very healthy and every doctor she's ever been to has also said that. Some people do honestly just have a bigger frame body and they're just taller and I'm one of those people and so is my munchkin but then there are other people who try to hide behind that and say oh I'm just big boned or I'm just a big person when in all actuality no honey big bones don't jiggle.
I just watched a show called fat and back and it's about this reporter from England who gained all of this weight because she ate about 6000 calories per day of food. She did gain quite a bit of weight from it and then went back to being slim and although she did keep on a little weight because she was technically underweight when she started; I mean she did prove her point. I don't find it fat shaming some of the things that she said) and I do think that we kind of glorify being big now because so many people are I still feel it's very important that I need to be healthy and I need to be fit. Yes, I'm a bigger girl and I've got a big butt and I have been overweight like seriously overweight before but I'm not anymore like I'm still a big girl and I know I can still lose about 20 pounds and but I'm in that healthy range and she got back down to that healthy range and all she did was just eat what you supposed to eat (correct portion sizes) and she was walking 10000 to twenty thousand steps per day which is honestly not that much we could all do that and we just don't because we're lazy asses. You can easily add those 10,000 steps in per day say you're busy mom like I am you go to school instead of parking in the front of the parking lot park in the back of the parking lot walk to the building, when you're going to the grocery store instead of parking in the very front park in the back where your car won't get hit for one and you get to add those steps in, and you can also add those steps in say if you have a munchkin are you have fuebabies like I do just take them around your apartment complex or around your neighborhood at least 2 times a night and not only are you going to get in your exercise but so are your dogs and your munchkins.
The other show I've been watching is my 600 pound life. And I honestly have to say that some of the people on here really really really pissed me off. They are so selfish, lazy, and inconsistent. "I want to lose weight I want to lose weight" but at the same time they don't do what they need to do to lose the weight and they're just harming themselves and their families. Some of the people on here, yes they do end up losing the weight, but the other people, all I see is their laziness and all I see is there different excuses as to why they cannot lose the weight; when the doctor is giving them everything they need to to lose it. Here's a meal plan,  here is the surgery that cuts your stomach in half, and here are some simple exercises that you need to do in order to just boost that weight loss they should already be having because their stomach now the size of the freaking banana. I have no sympathy for people who get this surgery, they didn't have to pay for it, and then they completely squander the advantage that is given to them because they cheat the diet. Why cheat yourself so much on such a precious gift that is given to you? These people are getting a second chance at a life that they wasted so far, and some of them just throw that second chance away by giving excuse after excuse.
I know that there are some people out there that are going to try and call me.on my shit. "Well bitch you are sitting there watching those shows, who are you to talk?" Well haters I hit the gym, while I've been watching the shows I'm either lifting my weights in my living room, or I'm playing with my dogs at the same time. I'm not just sitting here doing nothing. It's called multitasking and moving my ass while I'm watching these shows.
This girl that's on here now just had surgery and her excuse 2 months after surgery is that she's too sore to exercise. Her legs hurt too much. ....Maybe it's because you just had massive surgery and instead of getting up like your suppose to, you just laid on the bed? Doctors don't tell you to do something to just be mean. This doctor specifically has done hundred if not thousands of weight loss surgeries and I really doubt he is telling her to do something like get up off your ass and at least walk to be mean. No its so she doesn't end up paralyzed. 
Well just needed to get that rant out. Thanks for reading ^-^

Medically necessary???

The past few days Ive seen or heard quite a few commercials for these medications whose side affects, sorry but completely sound worse than what they are treating. For example (not using a real name cause I dont want to get sued) Do you have depression take this pill which may make you have a blood clot on the brain, enhance suicidal thoughts, cause extreme insomnia, and frequent urination and/or diarrhea. Seriously???? How about just get some therapy? Go exercise? Get rid of the shit in your life that is making you depressed or something besides taking a pill that could kill you???? I am not saying that depression isnt a serious issue but I would much rather be depressed than have to deal with all of that shit, no pun intended. 

The other one that I heard was for women that have gone through menopause but are having pain when trying to have sex. Ok ok ok...I actually understand this having gone through quite a few anatomy classes. When anyone goes through extreme hormonal changes it could cause major issues in the rest of your body, such as not being able to get wet when trying to have sex. The vaginal tissues are dry and sex can be extremely painful. Have you ever tried to have sex without any foreplay?? Ouch..Imagine that pain all the time. So, I understand why they tried to develop a drug to help women with this issue. However, the side effects of taking or applying the drug (to me) far outweigh the small benefit. I literally spit out my cranberry juice and screamed "WTF, just use some lube!" Thank god my munchkin wasnt around to hear me, that is the last thing I need her repeating to her teacher. But, it is an honest question. Why not just use some lube? If the drug causes sleep paralysis, bleeding, dramatically increases the possibility of uterine cancer, ulcers, and/or blood clots; why in the hell would you ever allow it anywhere near your body, let alone inside of it??????? I DONT UNDERSTAND!!! To me, it is just not medically necessary to take that shit or let it near you. If anything it is worse! I would much rather just experiment with a few different kinds of lube or try some herbal moisturizers. Fuck all that other noise. Not happening. 

Theses are just two examples of the ludicrous garbage that I have seen or heard and I know that there are hundreds of others. Please feel free to comment below the ones that you have heard. 

Next on the rant is about people who do not vaccinate their children but want to bitch and moan because I want to send my daughter to school with her favorite sandwich for lunch; a peanut butter and jelly. I get that an allergy can be life threatening. I have quite a few that have almost killed me and understand the fear but dont these people understand the fear of all of these horrible diseases that almost wiped out all of humanity at one point???? Really? I have to send my child to school with yours and yours has not been vaccinated against these horrible life threatening diseases like polio, measles, mumps, etc and yet I have to be mindful of your childs bullshit allergy because you refused to properly introduce these foods to them at the right time? Bullshit. BULLSHIT!  The only vaccine that I dont agree with is the flu vaccine because it has to be redeveloped every few months and has been proven to only be effective in about 12% of the population. The other vaccines that everyone should get have been proven for year and years and years. I am one of the first momma bears to stand up and say fuck you, fuck your non vaccinated ass, and fuck your bullshit fear of autism. Autism isnt caused by vaccinations. If it was, we would all be dealing with the shit. To be fair, there are far more people that have been diagnosed with at least a small version of it but can you see all of the other possible causes? Poor prenatal care, being too healthy during pregnancy, a genetic  predisposition to it, living in a highly polluted area, using that damn cell phone too much, eating all that bullshit and chemical additives in your processed food-yes even tofu is processed, etc. There are so many reason why we have higher numbers of autism, cancer,  and genetic abnormalities. But, defending yourself and your next generations against past epidemic diseases isnt a fucking reason for it. Get the damn shots and stop subjecting my child to the possibility of catching it from your germ ridden hipster kid. 

When your world becomes a 360....

The title is a bit of an oxymoron but hopefully there will be some people out there that understand what I mean. Just when you think that a chapter of your life has been closed forever, something happens and it all comes 360 right back into your day to day. A person, a career, a memory turned day to day life, etc. 

I am currently in my last week of clinicals and take my final exam tomorrow. It was suppose to be today but our 'sister' class didn't do the review last week so we had to push it back a day. I am so ready to be out there and over with this. I know that I do not know everything but I also know that I wont know everything until I am actually out there learning it. I have decided that I will be returning to regular college in about a year to start on my doctorate because I do not want to just assist in oral surgery. I want to be the surgeon. I want to be the doctor. I know that I have the strength now to do it and the skills to achieve it. First I have to take care of some of this debt, get in the field and get some experience under my belt, and most importantly get my mom her surgery. 

Next week I start my externship and I am so so so excited for it. At the end of this week I will have to choose where I will be going because I have several options at the moment from the places that I have interviewed with already. I am really hoping for the hospital but some of the offices were really nice. There are so many things to consider.

In other news I am a mommy without a munchkin this week. My munchkin is on the truck with my mom for a mini vacation and to go see family back in Florida. I really wanted to go along but with class and clinicals it wasnt going to happen. I literally cried yesterday though because I have never been without my munchkin for longer than a day! What am I going to do with my life for a week without her? Thank god I start clinicals doing long days (most likely at the hospital) or I would be a complete wreck. 

Well that and my 360. I know I know I know I have to be a fool and gluten for punishment but the heart wants what it wants..................... And that is all I am going to say about that right now.......

Well off to the gym 

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