Happy Memorial Day!!

I have gone back and forth trying to write a blog for the last three days and stopped each and every time because of how pathetic I sounded. 

Today, I want to thank all those military men and women, past and present! Yall are amazing! I wish I was accepted to enlist but am proud to be called an American thanks to yall! You all sacrifice time, blood, sweat, and tears just to keep this land free and safe. I can be that a lot of you know someone who has given the biggest sacrifice defending our country. They laid down their lives for my freedom, for the freedom of my daughter, and for the freedom of every son and daughter out there. 

Although I dont get to speak to my brother that much and we have a very distant relationship I truly admire him. He has gone on many deployments and literally lives six-ten months in Iraq, Afghanistan, and lord knows where else, and the rest of the minimal time he gets to spend with his three amazing sons and wonderful wife. Which, really isnt much time at all. He misses birthdays, first steps, first words, athletic events, black eyes, and all those fun moments with his children that most other men take for granted with their own kids. He gets to see them through pictures, skype calls that are far and few in between, and gets to hear about the interesting things that they do. He stay strong and keeps working, keeps providing for his family, keeps striving to do the best he can. He is my hero and has been my hero since I was a little girl. I dont look up to make believe figures, politicians, or bullshit movie stars. They all pale in comparison to him and all of the things he does. I wish more than anything that I got to have the relationship that my sister or mother has with him. 

I was a selfish, jerk face child. He is 12 years older than me so, we just never connected on many levels. 

I pray for his safety every day and thank god that I get to call him my brother, even though I dont get to talk to him or see him. 

I hope you all take a moment and remember the true heroes this memorial day. God Bless them, keep them safe, and their families   strong.