Let me also make this perfectly clear, if you dont talk to me, you havent talked to me in over a year, you havent asked to see my daughter, you havent asked how shes doing, you havent reached out, and you dont know shit about my day to day life then you have no right to pass judgment on me or how I live. I dont pass judgement on you or yours and apparently having a debate about a national issue is a good cause for you to try and blast me and what you think you know about me all over social media and then like a coward block me. I am not a perfect person, I am not a perfect mother but I know I am a damn good mother and would do anything for my daughter. No one is perfect and a christian like yourself should know that.
What aggravates me more than most is when people who claim to be such open hearted people, with the morals, ethics, and character of a specific religion then turn around and do the exact thing that they preach and witness not to do to others.
Im not even going to try and banter around the bush anymore, here is what happened. My munchkins Aunt from her fathers side was commenting back and for with my brother on facebook about the issue of raising the minimum wage. Instead of discussing facts or reasonably debating as my brother was trying to do and several other people, she resorted to personal attacks and when I got off work and read them; I commented back. I answered the questions she was barading my brother with, and then stated some other facts. I thanked everyone for commenting and sharing their opinions but because it was becoming to heated (specifically on her end) I stated that I was going to delete any and all comments after mine that were negative. I was trying to end the discussion because she obviously wasnt going to take the link my brother provided or the facts also stated, instead she was going to as his family usually does, fight tooth and nail for what she thought was right even though she was clearly proven wrong.
What was her response to this?
To try an humiliate me on my own page with false information and try to tear me down. She tried to claim that I have kept my munchkin from his family cause I have moved to a different state, that I am unstable, that I cant keep a job, and that I cant follow through with my education.
I was shocked! I thought her and I had an alright relationship. At least we use to.
I have NOT kept my munchkin from his family, however, it is not my responsibility to try and force communication with people that wont return emails, calls, text, or any other kind of communication. I have also moved to better myself and my daughter but even with the moves, she has always had a roof over her head, clean clothes, clean body, food in her tummy, and a top notch education. I can keep a job. I can also choose to get a different job because to me, my life will not be defined by my career title. It will be defined by the moments spent with loved ones, the memories, the laughs, the tears, and the opportunities I took instead of watching them pass by. A job is a job. A career can be put to an end very quickly without your consent and when that happened to me I changed my priorities and made sure I always had a back up plan. Which brings me to my education. I am working on technically my fourth degree. I have certifications in medical, loss prevention, child care, animal care, and have many, many skills that are multi-functioning. I can work in the criminology field, I can work in cosmetology, I can be a business leader, a marketing and advertising heavy hitter, I can run night clubs, lead, train, and rock security, write news articles and editorials, photograph precious moments or sports events, and I can speak in front of crowds like I am speaking to a dear friend. I have no fear where most do. I am passionate and outgoing. If I didnt follow through with my education I wouldnt be able to be getting this degree right now and broadening my opportunities even more in the field of dentistry. I wouldnt be able to make these plans to save my mom or rock a 4.0 in order to work with an oral surgeon one day to save my mom. I would be sitting on my ass like her nephew, living off of others, and neglecting my responsibilities. I would be doing whatever the hell I wanted to, never keeping a paycheck, and be fine with that.
But, I am NOT! I am doing what I have to and I am doing what I need to, to be a good mother and a good provider for my tiny family.
My words on here may get side tracked in talking about matters of my heart and those who break it but the truth is no one could ever break my heart cause they dont have it. They will never have all of it. It belongs to the little girl fighting her sleep in that little bed over there and she is the reason to my why, always and forever. Dont ever get it twisted! Those who I have talked about, that have let me down, made me sad, and shook my faith in humanity only did to a certain point. I am still here. I am not crying every moment of the day. I am not slowing my speed to my goals. I have not given up hope. I am not a wreck. Im not unstable or shaken.
Some ask why I care what was said or why it matters to me.
Well, it matters because even with everything I stated I am that passionate and caring person that does care. I make relationships with people and I am loyal to a fault. That fault is usually when they do some stupid shit like this and claim to think they know me or know my life. I will, as most of us Aries do, protect, defend, and honor those we care about out of natural instinct. I will also trust that those who are a part of my family no matter how extended or by a sham of a wedding be connected will have some respect in the fact I am family as I have respect for them and their family.
I maybe an outspoken bitch at times but I am also a person of class, respect, and humility. I have compassion for others. I over look flaws and see the best in those that I should, as the rest of the world does, see only the bad. I give chances when none should be given, and I hope while others give up.
And now that I have gotten that rant out, I feel SO much better!
Today was my first whole day off this week and I LOVE IT! I spent most of the day catching up on paperwork I needed to actually finish a few days ago and get ready for my radiology class that starts tomorrow, and I watched Sunday morning cartoons with my little diva this morning. She was great all day but now that she is fighting her sleep, lol, she doesnt want to listen. She does this thing where she sings or talks to keep herself awake. Usually, it is amusing and always imaginative but she needs to go to sleep!! We have to be up super early and I know she is going to fight me in the morning, take forever in the shower, and do any and everything in order to make us late. LOL it makes me laugh though. Hearing myself and my mom voice. Hearing some of her excuses for stuff and her rationalization for doing certain things. I really have to fight my own facial muscles from laughing or smiling at it right in front of her. For example, for the last 45 minutes I have been sitting here writing and trying to get her to sleep and she has been carrying on a story about her bear and pony and how her bear is searching for its family and the pony keeps coming up with different shenanagens and getting the bear off track. SERIOUSLY! She is going to be a writer or actress or director or something amazing. She may turn out like her teacher said week before last, a doctor or nurse or something for people with special needs cause she is so imaginative and caring.
Well, good night or good morning depending on where you are and when you are reading this. And thank you for reading!!! Leave a comment below, share your story, follow me on here, and/or add me on google plus or facebook (links provided on page).
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