It takes alot to not get discouraged in the midst of everything and I am really trying to stay positive or over come this feeling of just "WTF?!"
A few days ago, a friend gave me a ride home from class and she told me how it inspired her that I have the mentality I do about everything and that in spite of how overwhelming everything obviously should be for me and I'm staying very calm, cool, and collected. She stated that if it were her in my shoes she wouldn't know what to do but I'm just walking through it Iike it's nothing. Seeing a hurdle and overcoming it like it's nothing. Which is a huge compliment. However, in truth I do get overwhelmed but I keep a very strong face for my munchkin and I guess for my own benefit.
I have to shut everything off so it doesn't overwhelm me, which to some I may come off cold but it's not my intention. At the same time, it's also irritating to constantly dwell on stuff I can't control, the past, and my short comings. I refuse to let that control my future. I refuse to let anyone control my future or my present.
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