my past few days

Hey yall! Hows it been? 

Great on my end, thanks for asking LOL! 

Seriously though, it has been a very eventful week. I am sitting here unwinding after a very long and busy week and honestly it feels like its been a month. I cannot believe that just three days ago was my munchkins first day of school. She has just taken to it so well. I couldnt be a prouder mommy! 

She is acting like such a big girl, every day she has three to five new words that she is piecing together into small little sentences and like I said I couldnt be a prouder mommy. 

On a different note, I actually got to go out last night and party it up! One of my friends from school, Kita, invited me to join her and some of her friends at this club thing. It was okay. Didnt turn out to be as big of a deal as what it was hyped to be but it was great just getting out of the house, seeing other people, and chilling with her for a bit. It was very stress free and that is exactly what I needed. Plus I got to see someone that always makes me smile which was pretty awesome. I needed to smile..I need to smile often, and even though we were late to the club and I was somewhat out of my element, it was still wonderful. Her are some Pictures

 Me At the club

At Kita's before Hand

Kita and I at the club

Dont I lookt pretty and drunk LOL

Sometimes a person just needs to get away from everything to take a deep breath and just be themselves. I know I do. I get into these ruts where I end up feeling so smothered and imprisoned into this role that I start to forget who I am and what I stand for. I start to believe the bullshit that is being yelled at me everyday and I start to truly think that I dont deserve more than this. Thats when I sort of wake up, feel like pulling my own hair out, and either need to just let loose or blow up. I dont like blowing up at people. Infact, I hate it. It is a waste of energy and you just end up feeling worse afterwards because you always end up blowing up at the person that doesnt deserve it. 

Last night was great and I really look forward to more nights like it. 

On the school front, everything is alright. I did another technical rubric today and passed with flying colors again but certain people are really starting to rub me the wrong way. I cannot stand fake people or people that are flip floppers. In one of the last posts I did, I was talking about a woman that blew up for no fucking reason and was acting like a child. Well today she was playing the pity me card. She was going on and on and on about what happened the other day and was acting like Kita and I were talking constantly all class. We didnt say shit except for the one question about what we were learning, which we were learning at that exact moment. It was fucking pathetic how she reacted to it and how she was acting today. Grow the fuck up and get over yourself! I am learning at that same place as you, which means that I am paying the same fucking tuition and at least when I was talking in class it was about something relevant and I wasnt t-totally interrupting the teacher. She interrupts the teacher on a daily basis, interrupts everyone on a daily basis, and knows fucking everything apparently. I cannot stand that. I know I dont know everything in the fucking world, no one knows everything in the fucking world. So, stop fucking talking so we can all learn something. And stop playing the pity me card because you dont know how to behave in public. 

Well, I gotta go feed the my puppies. More in a bit...