When I just get tired
of the same old shit
I take a look at my life
and I see through it.
Some days are great
Some days suck
Some days I cant smile
some days I have no luck.
Today is a day
I wish I could forget
I am so bored
and boredom leads to regret.
Nothing is right
Everything is a mess
The living room is busted
and the baby isnt fussing any less.
You refuse to help
get angry when I ask
broke my heart a thousand times
in your own self pity you bask
Im so tired of this bullshit,
so tired of the pain
so tired of the punisment
and so tired of the blame.
Today wasnt a bad day by any means but I am feeling so torn down right now. I get home and my heart is just broken. I cannot do shit without getting it thrown back in my face or hit with the realization that even though I kicked ass just yesterday my hard work is never enough. Never! I cleaned the whole house till my ankle was swollen like a grape fruit and slightly bruised but none of this matters. I walk in and everything I did is gone. The dishes are piled in the sink, the kitchen floor that I just moped is now dirty, and I just feel useless. I get home and everything that Ive done is gone and the baby wasnt even here today. She is in school now.....I just dont understand.
Today is just not my day, other peoples bad vibes are running off on me, and I just really cant take this anymore. I need happy, I need peace...I need to be able to be excited about a day for the entire day and excited about the people around me for the entirety of that day.
My munchkin is finally asleep and I think I may have an early night too...hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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