Mrs Independent found a new direction

Mrs. Independent found herself a new direction as simply being Anna. Which explains the layout change. 

Yes, I am independent and very proud to be so but I am also just Anna. I am a hard working single mother in a world of hard working single mothers and to claim that I am the only Mrs. Independent out there is kind of a bitchy thing to do. 

That and I am really just trying to define myself right now and really focus on my dreams and ambitions. I cannot do that if I am trying to stick to this preconceived notion and title. Sometimes I will need help, sometimes I will be vunerable, sometimes I will bitch and complain, and other times you will want to strangle me for being so happy and bubbly. Shit happens. =) 

Life happens....

Speaking of which, I am having a bit of a rough time right now because of what is going on with my mom. She needs to have surgery and cant unless she pays this massive bill before hand even though she has kick ass insurance because the stupid insurance people consider it to be a "cosmetic" surgery. She has been on blood thinners for close to thirteen years and has to be on blood thinners, so her teeth have basically disintegrated in her mouth which has allowed abscess and infection to run ramped. Right now the infection in her mouth is so bad that the oral surgeon and her hemotologist want to do the surgery by Monday but cant unless she pays $2500! We dont have that kind of money,  I dont think anyone does. So, I did the only thing I could think of and that was to post it on Facebook. I have had a huge outcry of support in the form of prayers, which I am very thankful for but what I really need is some financial help so that she can actually get the surgery. Prayer is powerful but I just hope that prayer turns into some cold hard cash or I might lose my mom. My father already died when I was 15 because he was murdered. I just got to really have a relationship with my mom. It just isnt fair. I want to cry, to scream, to kick and punch the walls, I want to go out and beg on the road, to steal if I had to and for all of those that really know me, KNOW I would dont steal. That just isnt me. 

I have added a link at the bottom of the page if anyone wants to help save my mom. Any little bit helps. Seriously a dollar would still be a dollar closer to getting her that surgery and hopefully saving my mom. She works so hard to help everyone that she can and has never asked for anything in return. People like her are so far and few inbetween. These days in order for anyone one to help you, you have to help them first and my mom just doesnt think that way. She is the kind of person that would break her back if it meant that she could help you feed your kids, she would give you the shirt off her back if you needed one, she would let you sleep in her truck if it meant you werent sleeping on the street. She is caring and loving and genuin. She is ambitious and driven. She hardly ever says no and nothing ever stops her. Nothing until now. 

I have been so choked up about this since she told me two days ago. My head wont stop spinning trying to figure out a way to get the money. I cant focus on anything and its driving me insane. Today in the salon was so rough because I was so distraught about everything and I was trying so hard to keep a good face. The only person that could really tell that something was wrong was my teacher and thats cause shes a mommy of six and the middle sister of 12. She has had plenty of experience reading people and their emotions. 

All I can say is please help or please pray for us that some one, some of you can help save my mom. I know I sound desperate but I am and I am not ashamed to say it. If it was your mom you would do the same thing, and if you wouldnt then I feel bad for your mom. 


Here is the link 
https://www.wepay.com/donations/joyce-elkins-emergency-surgery