I moved down here in July and had a minimal amount of things because I had so little space to move everything down with, just my dodge and a small trailer. I left a lot back in Arkansas, things mainly I knew I could live without and other things that I was really sad to let go of but at the same time you gotta do what you gotta do. Now I look around and feel like I still have too much shit!
My bed is covered in cloths, half of which I can no longer fit in because they are all too big, and I have nick nacks and shit that I really dont need. We all have way more than we need, we live in excess and most people are so proud of it. I dont feel proud at all, infact I feel its a bit shameful. There are people out there that literally have nothing and need what most people take for granted.
Im going to make sure before I move into my new house after christmas that I have gone through everything and gotten rid of everything I do not need. Less clutter, less bullshit, less to clean.
In other news I got to speak with my <3 today!!
I havent really spoken about him on here so let me give yall a brief bit of background.
My <3 is a soldier and he is my high school sweetheart. We dated on and off all through high school and its been a grand total of eight years now that we have been friends, bf/gf on and off, and now we are finally together no more on and off stuff. We both had to grow up, learn from our own mistakes and realize what is really important to us and in our lives. Some how him and I always stayed in each others lives and Im very thankful for that.
Picture of us below
Yes, hes black and yes Im white, who the fuck cares!
In all honesty, I was very unaware of the fact I was white until I moved to hell otherwise known as Arkansas, where I was reminded of it every single day.
I wasnt raised to look at someones color of skin as a signifier to their character. A persons character is built on their morals, ethics, and actions. Not their skin color.
And a Nigger is someone who is ignorant, rude, uncouth, and has no real morals. It has nothing to do with ones skin tone.
Him and I havent really had many problems with people being racist against us or our relationship but the problems we have had were very eye opening and kind of saddening. It is 2012! There is no person on this planet that isnt mixed in some way. No one is 100% this or that, and skin color really doesnt show ones heritage anymore. In some cases it does but in others it doesnt.
Anyway, back to my brief introduction to my <3.
He is a soldier and deployed the day before yesterday for nine months. =(
That seriously blows.
However, I am a very strong willed individual and have mass amounts of love for this amazing man so the time is nothing in comparison to the moments Ill get to spend with him when he gets back. That and I have wonderful memories, pictures, and random moments where Ill get to skype or IM him and that will tide me over till he gets back.
I am very very proud of him for serving his country, I tried to but when I was four I broke my arm and the doctors placed the bone incorrectly so they said it was a liability to let me go to boot camp. Bummer...
On to even more good news! I got a job!!! And my new business cards for my cosmetologist business are in the mail!! Heres to kicking ass and taking names while my <3 is away and giving him a reason to be proud of me =)
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