Clinicals!!!!!!

So, Monday I start my clinicals!!!!!!

I am not nervous. I guess everything to this point has kicked me to the point where I'm just like, "Bring it!" I am ready for this shit and can't wait till its over. Currently I am preparing my binder for class on Monday. I know that everyone said I don't need notes because everything is hands on but I know I will or someone will and Ild rather be prepared than to just go with the flow. I haven't gotten to where I am by listening to those that, I'm sorry but, barely passed. I refuse to barely pass. I'm going to kick ass, take names, and rock this shit.

My winter break has gone remarkably well. My munchkin and I did catch a small winter cold but besides that things have been great. I was seriously spoiled by we will call him Army Love. Army love is new and very sweet. He is remarkable, kind, romantic, hilarious, and driven. I didn't think I was going to have any kind of a love life for a while because let's face it K. and really, the former kilt wearing whatever really made me question everything. I know what the mistakes I made in each relationship and I know what I needed to work on. But I also found out the people I thought I knew weren't people I even knew in the least. They both hurt me so many levels. They both lied about so many things. They both pushed me a point of no return and honestly it was foolish of me to keep trying for as long as I did. You can't make someone love you. You can't make someone try if they really don't want to. You can't see how controlling and manipulative someone is until you step back from them. Both of them tried and succeeded in manipulating me to accept things I never should have. I won't make that mistake again and I won't ever allow anyone to make me feel how both of them made me feel at one point or another.

So, now that I am onto someone fresh and new and amazing- who sought me out and is chasing me and not the other way around, I'm going to take the experiences I learned and suffered through and put them to good use. It truly is a new year. :-)