Let me just say that being the new girl again has its advantages and its disadvantages. I am not quite sure if they are equaling out yet or if they are going to but at least I don't feel like an outcast just yet.
When I was younger and had to start at a new school or in a new class, it was always very awkward for me. I wasnt the shy kid but to me, I always felt like I was walking in just a second to late to be considered.....for any group or status...if that makes any sense. So, I would just find my own way and befriend like minded people. I wasnt particularly an outcast because everyone knew who I was and I fit into several different groups (jocks, skaters, singers, poets, goths, etc) but I was never a bonified member of any group in particular. I was that one jig saw piece that always gets put to the side cause it just doesnt fit anywhere yet.
Just when I think I am starting to, shit gets changed up, I miss the inside joke, I space out cause I am bored, and then I am lost again. Its kind of aggravating and for a while a tad bit depressing. But, as always I found my own way and got by.
I dont want to just get by.
I dont want to just get by in any aspect of my life. I dont want to just get by paying the bills, just get by pretending to be happy, just get by or get through a relationship.
Which, is why I am thankful to report that my first two days at my new campus have been anything but awkward. I havent been getting by, I feel like I have been flourishing. Tomorrow is my second day on the salon floor and if its as busy as my first day, Ill be floored!
There are several new rules I have to get use to but all in all it has been great, everyone has been helpful and kind, and I feel very confident.
Ill write more later, my muchkin is going nuts
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