Let me start out by saying that my heart goes out to all the vicitms, their families, and friends of the Colorado shooting. That shit was crazy! Not to mention the fact that after it was all said and done the families of the victims had to go to a staging area or drive around to a whole bunch of hospitals with photos to find their loved ones because a majority of them didnt have their i.d.'s on them. That has to be the hardest part, its worst then just waiting. Knowing your family member or dear friend has been injured but you cannot figure out the extent until you find them, only to find out they werent injured...they were killed or they died not to soon before you found them.
Stuff like this just doesnt happen in America. To be perfectly honest, we are spoiled to safety. In other countries its like a daily event. Every step out of your door potentially could be your last, heck you dont even have to walk out. Sometimes, the violence and hate comes to them, like in Africa. The people are pulled out of their houses, young boys are taken to become fighters and more children soldiers, women are raped repeatedly until the rampage is over and then they may or may not be killed.
We are very blessed to be spoiled, to assume that if we send our kids or even go ourselves to a midnight showing of a movie that we are just going to a movie. That everything will be okay and at the end of the night, home is out destination. Not a hospital or morgue.
On a different note, that lonely feeling I was talking about in my last entry has finally arrived. Although, every one has been really nice to me, I am starting to see where I am not welcome or wanted. I am in a very small class and at first I thought that was a good thing but really its harder than being in a big class. Especially, coming into a small class long after roles have been established and you dont know who has beef with who because being "fake"/professional and always wearing a smile is a basic thing. I hate the feeling out phase..your getting to know them, they are getting to know you and in the end neither of you really know each other at all. Just bullshit assumptions and guesses.
Yesterday, was a really busy day in the salon but it went by really smoothly. However, its getting kind of annoying how nice these people are and then they just stop talking to you and start or continue another conversation with someone else, that is clearly about you or has something to do with you. Even if they arnt really talking crap about you, hello! You were just talking to me, ya think instead of making the topic me or something about me, I could maybe join in and give you my perspective or thankyou for the weird ass compliment.
Although, thats how its going to be coming into a salon as the new cosmetologist so...I should just get use to it then, huh?
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