Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Last Days in Dental Office Management
Monday, December 8, 2014
So, recently I have fallen into the social media trap, which I wrote about in another post. I am now and instagram - er. LOL! It just sounds so absurd but whatever. I, however, am not posting pics of my meals. Nope. I fell into the category of annoying animal and pet pics. It's actually not to bad a way to waste time or when you need a smile to just scroll through the hundreds of pics posted or adorable turtles, cats, dogs, etc. Check me out at @ms.elkins_yall on instagram. #follow4follow
Over the past few weeks I really needed those random, no reason smiles, and laughs from adorable little videos.
Per usual there have been so many things that have just tried their hardest to tear me down. BUT! My dear readers, I will over come and I will keep this positivity because as I have written so many times before. As much as I want to bitch, moan, and complain; I know there are people out there fighting much harsher battles, dealing with worse people, and overcoming so much more. I can't begin to innumerate the countless blessing I know I have.
Speaking of one of those blessings, I am SO happy to announce that I am only 1 more class away from my externship and degree in dental!!! I think that I'm going to continue onto my bachelor's degree after I get placed in a good oral surgeons office but for right now, keeping my head in the game, grades as high as possible, and graduating at the top of my class is my main focus and goal. Besides, hopefully getting my mom her surgery as soon as possible. It's quite pathetic really, now that I know the inside tricks of the trade and some of the dental secrets, that insurance companies and the scam artist dentists my mom has seen have tried to claim that what she needs is purely cosmetic. ITS NOT! The whole thing pisses me off to no end. I know there are good doctors and surgeons out there that have dealt with having to surgically extract full dentition of someone who has protein s and c deficiency, and has been on blood thinners a while. I will find them, hell I hope to work for one. I want to make a change and not only help my mom but help others like my mom who can't even get cleanings done because of the lack of education on the disorder and on the effects of blood thinners on the body. She wasn't even told when she started the blood thinners that they caused bone loss. Most don't realize it because the people placed on blood thinners normally are already elderly and have no viable teeth left so the bone loss affects their spine or hips and it's attributed to osteoporosis, not the constant thinning of their blood which weakens the bone strength. My mom, however, still had beautiful teeth. Now she has maybe 6. They have all broken off, piece by piece, brittle and too damaged for her to even brush them. She has to rinse her mouth with scope and peroxide just to keep the periodontal infection from becoming sepsis in her blood. And still, insurance and the dentist and/or oral surgeons she has seen across the country see the necessary hospitalization and extraction of her teeth under the monitoring of a hemotologist to be "cosmetic". BULLSHIT! Your' oral health effects your' over all health. Plane and simple. Look it up....
Okay, I didn't mean for that to turn into a rant. I guess it was just on my mind.
Thanks for reading and as always comment below, share, subscribe, and hope you are having a pleasant day or night depending on where you are in the world.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Black Friday.....
When in the hell did black Friday start on fucking Thursday!!????!!! For all of my over seas readers, thanksgiving is kind of a big deal over here in America. It's not our independence day but it's a very special holiday that is suppose to be spent with family or friends celebrating the years and everything that you are thankful for. Over the years it has been morphed into just getting together with friends and/or family and stuffing your face with massive amounts of turkey or ham and many other foods and then in alot of homes watching some football. When I was younger it was spent at a native American powwow and I was either tending to the meal being prepared over a fire or I was a featured dancer in the arena.
Now, these stupid corporate ass hats are opening stores at 6 pm on fucking thanksgiving! Screw spending time with family or helping clean up after everyone has gorged themselves on turkey, nope let's go shop at target or Walmart and buy a bunch of shit we don't need but it's on sale and it's shopping for another mass corporate driven bullshit holiday that again is suppose to be about family and togetherness but fuck that. It's about who has the best presents?!?! I am beyond aggravated about this. Not only do all of the clowns who are shopping on Thanksgiving miss the point but now all these people that wanted to spend their holiday with their families but work in retail now also have to work on the holiday. It's even more aggravating because it just makes it all okay. Think about all the soldiers that can't be home for any holiday and these stupid retailers are just taking advantage of greedy mother fuckers who don't see the point in family togetherness.
I am NOT going to shop on Thanksgiving. I WILL NOT shop on black Friday I do not give a fuck about the sales! I will NOT add to this bullshit and refuse to support it in any way. I beg any of my American readers to remember the reason to these holidays and celebrate your family/friends/what you are thankful for. Don't support these retailers that are just fattening their wallets with your money while your still struggling. If you do invest your money in a sale, do it at a local store that way the money stays into your local economy. These corporations do not care about your family, they obviously do not care about their employees who have to go in on Thanksgiving NOT black friday. Come on common sense people!
Instagram-y for me lol
I broke down and made a damn instagram account. All these years I have stuck to specific social media sites in the delusional idea that I was doing something good for myself. The truth is it doesn't matter what site you go on, the Web is the web. And, you can get addicted to social media just as easily as you can get addicted to anything else. How do I know? Because my pathetic ass cannot stay off my damn facebook for more than two days EVEN if I don't post anything. I am so fucking pathetic. Whatever. Follow me on instagram at ms.elkins_yall
Not much to report for the last few days. procrastination at its finest today. I blame the cold weather and my warm blankets/robe. I managed to get up and take a nice warm shower but then it took me a whole damn hour almost to choose something to wear....what do I choose? Leggings and a long sleeve black shirt..basic bitch is my outfit for the day. Now I should be cleaning my house and preparing for my week but I have this kitten on my foot and if I move she wakes up and if she wakes up the dogs get up and my feet stop being so warm. Ugh!!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2014
So sleepy but can't clos see my eyes
I am so exhausted. It has been a very hectic day, month, several months....I want to close my eyes and rest but for some reason it's just not happening. I feel restless and with everything that has happened, I feel just broken hearted but empty. I'm not sad. I'm not even pissed anymore. I'm just laying here. And, at the same time I'm not just laying here because I refuse to stay still. If everyone else can move on why can't I?
I cleaned and scrubbed my house today. Not like a thorough spring type cleaning but the bleach was out. I even made Cleo my semi foster kitty a little jungle gym of sorts just because I was bored. Not bored enough to work ahead in my course but bored enough to take some boxes and make a little kitty maze out of them. Do you know how that is? You have all these other things to do on your to do list but it just seems so much more responsible to make a completely new thing to do......yeah, mind of a woman I guess...or just the mind of a lost heart.
Random thought for the night and to end this rambling nonsense of mine for the night, " If blue birds can fly way above the rainbows, why can't I"?
Suppose to be studying but......
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Takes the cake
This week I have learned many things and reflected much on myself and my choices. The truth is I have made so many mistakes and chose the wrong people so many times. I have also been more forgiving than I should have and I've trusted the wrong ones with my heart. I know I hold some double standards because I am a woman and guess what some times we are a tad bit irrational. However, no I won't go into that tirade because there is no excuse. I fucked up. I trusted someone I thought I could and turns out I couldnt. I should have said things I didn't and I lost what I thought was my future. No one is my future besides my daughter, myself, and the goals I have for my little family. If there are people that don't want to be in my life they can leave. Regardless of how many times I allowed them back in mine, forgave, accepted, and tried. I cannot change what I've done, who I love, who I cannot love, who I feel trapped by, and why I feel so alone in a crowded room. It's probably because of those same people that I trusted and found out I couldnt. I know my mistakes. I know my flaws. I'm upfront about them. Ugh I feel like I'm just going in circles of how shitty I am. Enough!
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
why am I awake???
In my alertness I have done as most Americans do and watched entirely too much YouTube. The best show being #goodmythicalmorning , they had a video where they took the predictive text that now literally tries to guess the next word of your sentence and tried to get to a key word only using the words provided in the predictive text on your phone. I am going to attempt tthat now at least once.
OK here I go LOL,
The word I need to get to is Sleep.
I have to be able to get to the right place to be able to make it to the right now and then you can get it.
Hahaha haha well I tried. Good morning or good night where ever you may be.
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Your' lot in life
Thank you for reading!!!
Sunday, November 2, 2014
It is what it is
Saturday, November 1, 2014
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!! ( A day late but so what)
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Writers Block and Academic Success
Although, I was prone to bullshit, I am also quite resilient to it. In my writers block over these past few days I may not have been able to write out all these thoughts roaming around inside my brain, I was still able to achieve some great academic success. I ended up having the highest grade in my Radiology class, the highest grade on the last competency, and the highest grade on the last written exam. I have also began a new class just this week- Preventative oral care. So far, in my writers block I have managed to work ahead by almost 4 weeks with only 3 pages of workbook terminology, 3 essays, a survey, and studying to complete for the rest of the term. I feel very accomplished!
Now, if only my accomplished feeling can spread to cleaning my house that I will admit I have slacked on.... :( To have a clean house is not just a woman thing, it is something was has been so deeply inbedded into my very being that sometimes I fear that I may have OCD but then again, who cares if I am a bit OCD. To be organized and to want things to be a certain way isnt necessarily a bad thing. Yes, some people go over board with it and I actually dont like a centralized schedule or a routine that causes me to literally do the same thing over and over again. Not my idea of fun at all. I am a free spirit, I like to roam, and I love to enjoy a bit of randomness when I randomness is appropriate.
I have to gush a bit right now. My little munchkin was praised greatly at school today. I walked in to pick her up as usual but was a few minutes early and they were having a bit of circle time/reading time, so I sat down next to her on the floor. Come to find out the book they were reading from was my little divas homework journal. Every Tuesday and Wednesday they are given homework to do in the form of a journal. They are given certain letters, must write the letters, then glue pictures of items that represent those letters or start with those letters in the journal, and then do something else creative to represent the letter. For example tonight we had the letters D and E to do. I made her two booklets, one for each letter. In those little booklets were exercises in how to write the capital and lower case of each letter, some things that begin with the letter like a page on dogs cause dog starts with D and she has a dog (Kiniki). Also, the pics from one of her coloring books were of three different dogs. It was fun and easy. Anyway, she was being praised because apparently she is the only one in her class doing her homework correctly. Its pre-K. Its literally 1 to 2 letters per week and then practice in writting their name or whatever the teacher points out to the parent that the little munchkin needs to work on a bit. I gush because my little Diva is a smart little munchkin and I am so very proud of her, even when she frustrates me.
Now, here is where I state what pisses me off. As I stated above, the homework isnt that hard, its not as if the teacher is being too harsh or expecting too much from them. Why cant these other parents take the time to be with their kids and at least make sure their pre-K homework is done correctly???? If they arent doing it now, they wont be doing it when they get into more advanced classes. We get such a limited amount of time with our children before they grow up and no longer want or technically need us. My munchkin is already so independent its kind of scary sometimes. I want to cherish the time I have with her. Why other people cannot see the amazing little individual they have blossoming infront of them enough to even help with a small assignment to help them further themselves quicker academically, will never make sense to me. Spend time with your kids! Make sure that they do their homework! Raise your kids dont just let them exist in your home. Help them thrive. Help them grow! A childs time, especially with their parents is such a small window. I for one and going to help raise her to be strong, smart, keep her high self esteem, and know that she will always be able to come to me, talk to me, and never feel like how some of those kids do (craving for attention or completely content in being unnoticed) They are 4 and 5! I didnt become content in being unnoticed till my last year of high school and even then I despised the residual feeling. I cannot contain that side of me, my outgoing nature, and neither should I have to. Passion, out going, out spoken, and a love of learning shouldnt be frowned on or locked away.
On a completely different note let me get some other stuff off my chest.
This season of American Horror Story is FREAK-ing amazeballs!!!!!!! I missed season three but the freak show is great! Also...can we just touch base on the fact that there are actually quite a few people out there in the world that actually do have 2 heads??? And the clown......FUCK THAT!!!!
Now Walking Dead, that is literally the most stressful and most anticipated night of the week sometimes. 17.5 million viewers alone for the season premier! And, well worth those 17.5 million viewers time. We are all so morbidly fascinated with the down fall of the world and specifically due to a zombie apocalypse. I completely get it and have probly spent entirely too much of my time thinking about or talking about what would happen or what to do if that ever came to be. What is really scary is that it kind of already is happening in many ways. There are two strands of malaria that mimic what we have sensationalized as walkers and zombies. There is ebola, right now, beginning to consume our fear of epidemic and outbreak and it doesnt help at all that there are stories circulating now that people are raising up from the dead after dieing from it. A real life walking dead phenomenon, maggots eating their already necrotic flesh, and no real reason as to why they can just get up from the grave. We are morbid by nature, curious to a fault, and ambitiously planning on an end of days we all fear but dream of. It is simply terrifying.
On the show itself, I am as the majority of viewers are also apparently feeling, thankful that Rick is finally out of farmer mode and back to kicking ass mode. Of course Mishone and Carl will always be my favorite characters, mainly from what MLOML told me about the comics but also about their great portrayal over the seasons. Who I didnt expect to like but have grown very fond of is Carol. She use to annoy the hell out of me but now I really respect her. Blowing up the compound like that, being so resourceful, saving them even with everything else that had happened, and that Mary lady got what she deserved! Screw Tartarus!! Watching #TalkingDead after was EPIC! Conan O'Brian is seriously funny when he is put into candid moment like that. He said what we all wanted to say, and I couldnt stop laughing. After the continued almost heart attack during the premier, I really needed that laugh.
Almost time for bed...You know what to do, comment, follow, share, and have a wonderful day or night depending on where in the world you might be. Thankyou, for taking your time to read about my hectic life and your continued readership. I am beginning to take emails and requests again, so feel free to reach out. No question to risque, no topic to taboo. Anonymous letters to the writer fully accepted. =)
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Maybe just maybe
It takes alot to not get discouraged in the midst of everything and I am really trying to stay positive or over come this feeling of just "WTF?!"
A few days ago, a friend gave me a ride home from class and she told me how it inspired her that I have the mentality I do about everything and that in spite of how overwhelming everything obviously should be for me and I'm staying very calm, cool, and collected. She stated that if it were her in my shoes she wouldn't know what to do but I'm just walking through it Iike it's nothing. Seeing a hurdle and overcoming it like it's nothing. Which is a huge compliment. However, in truth I do get overwhelmed but I keep a very strong face for my munchkin and I guess for my own benefit.
I have to shut everything off so it doesn't overwhelm me, which to some I may come off cold but it's not my intention. At the same time, it's also irritating to constantly dwell on stuff I can't control, the past, and my short comings. I refuse to let that control my future. I refuse to let anyone control my future or my present.
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Embarrassed and Pissed
WHAT!?!?!??!?!