Jersey shore

How I know I would never be accepted on Jersey Shore:

1. I dont like to fake bake, and prefer actual sunlight.

2. Im not a DTF girl and dont think I ever will be. Just not my style.

3. I love the outdoors and dont mind camping =)

4. I dont pee in public, especially not at clubs or in bushes (unless ya know when Im actually camping)

5. Im not a jersey girl, Im a FLORIDA WOMAN! 

I dont have anything against them and can see the allure of them and the show but its just not for me. I have never been good at branding myself as anything, punk, redneck, ghetto, preppy, grundge, emo, jock,  etc. In alot of ways I fit into almost every category and I dont fit into any of them. I think thats why I have always had problems friend wise. There are very few people out there that are seriously like myself and do not fit into the stereotype of the week. Some times I feel like I ostracize myself from the people around me because I just cannot get into what they are talking about or what they are into and then when I am interested I feel like I am being over bearing or something so I withdrawl even more. It s very self destructive and when I was younger it really fucked my head up. 

I wish it was as easy as they have it on the shore, they just party and live and everything is a show. They have each others backs and they fuck with each other but at the end of the day they have each others backs again. They can go to the club and shake their ass and not care. They are promiscous and are fine with it and their families still support them. Its alot of freedom but its also a huge burden to bear. I couldnt do it.

I love going to the club and having a good time with my friends but I also feel out of place on my own. I cant sometimes go meet people but when they start to grind on me or try to get me to do something that is beyond my moral compass I shut down. I get scared. 

Im just weird. Or am I normal?

Bed now...