No beach yesterday but I did get to spend the entire day at my step dads for his huge bbq. It began for one of his friends but then Alyssa and I became the guests of honor (the other dude didnt mind though). It was wonderful getting to spend that time with my dad and letting him spend that time with his granddaughter. She had such a blast and ended up totally passing out on his couch. She played so hard and ran so much, I was actually surprised she didnt pass out somewhere outside. Like in a lawn chair or on one of the toys.
There was alot of people there that I had never met before but it was cool getting to know who my dad has been hanging out with and goodness has he become a true hippy. I LOVE IT!! He is getting back to his native roots and really trying to make the best of everything. One of his closest friends now has a doctoret in Native American History and Mythology, and is a true shamen. Its so nice being able to have a real conversation with someone who actually knows what she is talking about. I cant wait to move back.
They had music going, a real pit bbq, horse shoes, and my dad got Alyssa her first tricycle! It was adorable and she was so excited when she saw it.
Then my cousin Tim passed out because he drank to much on an empty stomach and then hit the bowl. Not a really good combination. It was hilarious seeing him like that in the back of my truck. He needed to loosen up though, and relax because its like this year has just been one hit after another for him.
We got to the bbq around 2:30pm and didnt end up leaving till around 10pm! It was a long but good day.
This morning I got up and was expecting to have about 5 haircuts to do at my sisters day care but only ended up doing 2 because 2 girls quit and one girl was sick. Kinda bums me out, I was really looking forward to that money but Ill make it up some other way while Im here. If I dont it just means that I wont be able to go to the beach while Im down this time but it will be a good incentive for me to hurry up and get my ass down here.
Everyone is and has been on my ass about moving back to Arkansas this past summer and not just staying in Florida when I was back, but this is what people need to understand, I was trying to make my family work. Everyone wants there family to work and will do some stupid shit trying to make it work and thats what I did. Its not my fault that my last ditch effort didnt work and I am planning on moving back but unless you are going to pay my way back home and make sure that I have a place to live and a job then back the fuck off! I have to do what I have to do to take care of my little one and be a responsible adult. My dad understands that, I wish others would to. I am thankful for at least having that back up. I have to graduate and have a way and then I will be back here where I belong, where I feel like I belong. Its not even about the people that are here, because alot of my friends I still havent seen and they havent made an effort to see me. Its the atmosphere and the relaxing vibe. I feel like the weather is even on my side here. I should have stayed in my backyard instead of staying as far as I did but then again if I wouldnt have then I wouldnt have my amazing blessing of a daughter and that may work for other people but not for me. She is my everything, point blank period. I am not one of those mothers that doesnt care about their kids or takes being a mother lightly. Everything regarding her rests on my shoulders, and I take that as a honor not an obligation. If more people thought like that the world would be a better place.
Well now that I have all of that off my chest, I guess I will help my sister out a bit and clean up from the parties we had this weekend. No, nothing is really cleaned up yet. LOL!! We had way to much fun for that!
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