To say that I have missed it down here would be a massive understatement. I know that no matter where I go my problems will be with me but down here I feel like I am free. The world isnt pushing down on my shoulders and I dont have everything lingering over my head threatening my life. Florida sunshine just makes me feel so much better; like the world is right and everything will be okay.
I was suppose to go to the beach this morning but everyone is recuperating from the weekend, so Ill have to go Wednesday before I leave.
The day after I got here, I got to go to my step dads house and hang out with him for a while which was wonderful! I missed him so much and he was such a glowing papa =) He was so proud of Alyssa and was such a happy Grampa. Its really nice to see my dad like that. Last time I was down he looked really rough. Then again, last time I was down he had just had a motorcycle accident that fucked him up pretty bad. Later today I am going back for a BBQ at his house with all of his friends. Its suppose to be a huge event. He is having horseshoes and volleyball, BBQ over a huge self built pit thing, and all kinds of other stuff. And he is going to watch Kiniki for me until I move back in November. Which is fucking awesome because I really didnt want to get rid of him. He is such a good dog and I love him so much, I really didnt want to rescue a dog just for him to go to someone else and then the pound. I fucking hate the fact that I cant keep him with me right now. But, at least I know he is going to be in good hands for a few months.
After that we had my moms big 50th bash and it really was a bash!!! It was SO much fun!! I never thought having a party for a 50 year old would end up like that but my mother even got onto the trampoline!! And, yes I got pictures! After the little ones all went to bed (because almost all of us now have little ones) the shots started pouring and it was a festival!!!
Yup it was a blast!
Yesterday was also pretty cool, I know my munchkin had an awesome time. We went to the Jacksonville Zoo and although everyone started out pretty agitated, it all turned out great! Alyssa loved seeing the monkeys, the bears(that she growled at LOL!!), the Lions, the Gorilla, and the zoo even had a small waterpark for the kids. I was the only adult wearing cloths that were okay to get soaked so of course I was running around with all of them =) (Yeah lets blame it on the fact I was wearing a swimsuit and not the fact I am just a big kid that loves water activities) It made me feel so much better though. I was getting really worn out from the heat but that water really did the trick. Then we all came back to the house, dropped the kids off with their grandparents or babysitters and all went out for moms big dinner which ended up being a $300 bill. It was worth it though because it exactly what my mom wanted.
I love Florida because of the atmosphere, the fun environment, the happy people, and the ability to do whatever I want when I want to do it because you can either walk, drive, or ride a bus anywhere and I dont even live in tourist Florida. I love my home and I really wish I would have realized this before I moved away because I wouldnt have left. I never want to leave and it is going to absolutely suck driving back to Arkansas. If it wasnt for school I wouldnt drive back. I would stay here and do whatever I had to do to have a place to call my own and keep Alyssa safe, happy, and healthy. Arkansas stresses me out. People are rude, and there is always something breaking my heart. November wont come soon enough for me but this is going to be a great motivation for me to get everything done and keep my attendance up at school so I can graduate as soon as physically possible.
Well I gotta get off of here for right now and figure out what Im doing with my morning =)
Yesterday was also pretty cool, I know my munchkin had an awesome time. We went to the Jacksonville Zoo and although everyone started out pretty agitated, it all turned out great! Alyssa loved seeing the monkeys, the bears(that she growled at LOL!!), the Lions, the Gorilla, and the zoo even had a small waterpark for the kids. I was the only adult wearing cloths that were okay to get soaked so of course I was running around with all of them =) (Yeah lets blame it on the fact I was wearing a swimsuit and not the fact I am just a big kid that loves water activities) It made me feel so much better though. I was getting really worn out from the heat but that water really did the trick. Then we all came back to the house, dropped the kids off with their grandparents or babysitters and all went out for moms big dinner which ended up being a $300 bill. It was worth it though because it exactly what my mom wanted.
I love Florida because of the atmosphere, the fun environment, the happy people, and the ability to do whatever I want when I want to do it because you can either walk, drive, or ride a bus anywhere and I dont even live in tourist Florida. I love my home and I really wish I would have realized this before I moved away because I wouldnt have left. I never want to leave and it is going to absolutely suck driving back to Arkansas. If it wasnt for school I wouldnt drive back. I would stay here and do whatever I had to do to have a place to call my own and keep Alyssa safe, happy, and healthy. Arkansas stresses me out. People are rude, and there is always something breaking my heart. November wont come soon enough for me but this is going to be a great motivation for me to get everything done and keep my attendance up at school so I can graduate as soon as physically possible.
Well I gotta get off of here for right now and figure out what Im doing with my morning =)
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