About to hit the hay and I must say, today has gone fairly well. I found out today that many, many people actually care about me and are sending me their well wishes and good karma. Do I deserve it? I really dont know anymore but I am very, very thankful for it and hope that is continues on this month.
I havent written it on here yet but my main wish for christmas this year is for my daughter to have a great holiday experience. Now, being a pagan and having different beliefs I will never be that much into Christmas. Hell, growing up was really weird with Christmas. Every other year we would attend Catholic mass with my mother and then on the opposite years we would celebrate like every other greedy american would. Somewhere in my teens, my step dad finally started adding those pagan holidays in there and him and my mom would let me go to an after christmas powwow. Alyssa, well when she gets older then she will have the opportunity to change and hell by then all of our customs may have changed. But as a child, as a toddler, I want her to have a blasty blast. No worries, not a care besides how to rip that damn paper off the fastest.
I feel much better, much-much better after talking to my amazing friends, how I have missed you all so much. Even the ones that never really went anywhere. Lately I have been feeling like Im standing in a crowded room and not one person notices that I am screaming at the top of my lungs and clawing my eyes out. Now, I feel so much better.
Only makes me fee slightly crazy, =)
To a young child Yule and Christmas will be almost indistinguishable, but your welcome to come to our Yule ritual if ya want. It'll be on the 17th at noon. I'll be there all night doing a vigil. So if you want to come and need a ride let me know. :)
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