Bound

I felt as though my heart was bound to yours.

I was your ever faithful,

Naively loyal,

Hopelessly accepting, 

Fool of a love. 

I tore myself apart to be yours.

I accepted all your faults, 

I kept a fools hope, 

I pushed,

We were just ashes,

Of a long lost fable. 

Not even a fairy tale, 

No knight in shining armor, 

and I need not to be saved. 

You need the saving. 

You need the awakening.

And yet I was bound to this. 

Each time you fed me a perfect lie, 

Each time you led me down the road of lost redemption, 

Each and every time you tossed me aside,

Bound,

Tormented,

Fool.

I gave you all my secrets, 

I hid no flaws, 

I laid myself out before you,

My heart resting in your hands.

-You applied the pressure. 

You ignited my love, 

never to behold it. 

You took that heart, 

and tried to destroy it.

How I wished I could have stopped. 

I wanted to stop. 

-Stop being yours,

Stop accepting all you are,

Stop believing your false promise of love, life, forever. 

Stop the bond, 

Free myself. 

Even when you threw me away,

I knew I wasnt free. 

I knew I was still yours. 

Even when you didnt want me,

One day you would.

I waited for you, 

when you had no plans of ever coming home. 

I prayed for you,

When you were cursing God for giving you life. 

I fell for you,

when you had no intention of catching me. 

I gave you all that I am,

and you let it all go.

You told me I was written on your heart,

then told me your heart has been long gone.

You told me I was your dream,

then told me you never dream.

You told me I made you miserable,

then pronounced that you were just miserable. 

I begged for just one more night, 

I forgot my moral code,

I had you stuck on my body like a tattoo,

I held you close,

You stabbed me with everything you could. 

Ive said it a million times, 

I love you! 

Ive proved it a million times, 

Im yours!

I was bound, 

to you.

I would have made that permanent. 

I would have crossed that line.

I would have took your name. 

I would have bore your children.

I would have stood by you in all ways.

I would have.

You were once music to my heart, 

your name would awaken a smile,

even on the darkest of days.

A memory of you, saved me.

I was a fool! 

I was naive!

I was bound,

when in truth, 

I absolutely hate to be.

Youve finally done it, 

Youve finally pushed me to far, 

Youve finally been the cruelest, 

Youve finally broken it. 

I was bound,

Youve finally lost me.

I wished harm on you, 

I cried,

My very soul wept,

I cursed your name, 

I begged the Gods to punish you,

For Karma to kick your ass.

I lost my control.

But youll never hear me apologize. 

Im a fool, 

Im an idiot, 

I asked this upon myself,

I begged and pleaded for your love, 

I should have know the consequences.

But I am a woman, 

I am a force to be reckoned with,

I am vulnerable,

I am brave,

I am strong willed,

I am proud, 

I am Beautiful,

I am strong,
I am, to a fault, cursed.

I was bound but no more.

I was cursed but not more. 

I was lost but no MORE! 

Whats done is done,

Ill pay my dues, 

when they come around,

Ill smile knowing,

Im FREE!