Life isnt all Bad

In this crazy world, you really have to remember that life isnt all bad. Yes, I have written at least 80 blogs that are just basically me whining like a little bitch but I do always at least try to add in a bit of positivism in it. I try to be optimistic. I cannot stand it when people say they are realistic. The truth is, they are not being realistic they are being pessimistic with a polite spin. 

The cup is neither have empty or half full, it is what you make it. 

Recently, I have been very down because its been one thing after another stressing me out and trying to rain on my parade. If its not my daughters father either completely ignoring her or trying to consistently play the victim, its a bill that over due, a bit of homework I forgot, me being my clutzy self, my mom being my mom, a teacher trying to start shit with me over nothing, feeling left out in my tiny group of friends, getting sick when I cannot afford at all to get sick, and hurting the ones I love the most and seriously not trying to at all. Oh yeah and my high school sweet heart/love of my life completely breaking my heart because I make him miserable. Why, because I want to see him on his days off and I pick the most stupid shit to do. Cause you know, no one would ever love to just chill at home, work on cars, or go shooting as a date. Fuck no, I must be out of my mind to ever suggest such horrible actions 0_o. 

HOWEVER! 

There is quite a bit of light at the end of this rainbow! I am blessed and I know that I am blessed. I am a real piece of work but for some reason I am blessed. I have a roof over my head, my little munchkin is well taken care of and I can provide for her, all of my furbabies arent suffering in the least, and I have a 4.0 gpa in school regardless of any other bullshit, stress, or anything. School is most likely going to suck tomorrow because I have been up all night but I am still kicking ass! This is probably the 2nd best I have ever done in school/college. 

So my darlings, life isnt all bad. Yes, there are rough patches, and shit happens on the regular. You want to go up and mother nature shoves you down. You want to go one way and the plans get changed, like the map of your life was taken right out of your hands and switched from english to chineses and all you can do is try to decipher the land marks. You have to roll with the punches and take those moments to really enjoy and be thankful for what you do have. 

-And what I have is a crazy ass spread out family that I love and love to hate. I have an amazing, beautiful, smart, and out going child that I love more than anything else in this world. I have an truly phenomenal kilt wearing rock star that even when we disagree and we have our major ups and downs, at the end of the day, he is one of the only people on this planet I can bear my soul to and know that Im completely safe in doing so. If I fall hes there to catch me, if Im down hes there to raise me back up, when Ive floated to high and my pride is getting the better of me, he is there to give me a reality check. I have an awesome step dad that I miss so much right now. He is all the way back home in Florida and I still run to the window or flip around real quick when I hear an old school motorcycle, heart fluttering because I wish it was him driving up. I have 2 dogs, a cat, and a turtle that are more than my babies and even when they piss me off and get into stuff they arent suppose to and make a huge mess, I wouldnt be me with out them. I have the chance to get my education and pursue all of these dreams I have and there are so many people out there that cant. I am blessed and I am thankful I am blessed.