Today, I was having a pretty great day. Class wasnt all that bad, I woke up early enough for not only me to get a shower in the morning instead of at night but for the munchkin to get her shower and eat without eating on the run. It was the little victories that made today pretty great. Took two competencies (tests/lab tests) at school today and I am pretty sure I did really well and even though I got an 87 on a written exam that I was sure I would get a 100 on, I was still proud of how well I did. Seriously, today was a smile day!! That was until a teacher I havent had much contact with since my first semester in school text me and said that she needed to see me after school tomorrow. I already had to move around 2 clients looking to get their hair done because I normally do not have class on Fridays. That is money that I desperately need to pay my bills. But instead of missing a day in class and putting my future goals on the back burner, I did the responsible and motivated thing and just switched stuff around. Do you know how many people in my class and in others that are missing tomorrow? I am literally going to be sitting in lecture with maybe three people. But, anyway, I get this text from her and she wont even say what the meeting will be about but just that it isnt good and for me to have a nice night. How in the hell am I suppose to have a nice night when I know that there is something that I am walking into at school tomorrow? That even though I am a good student, an A student, and really one of the only ones actively trying to keep people participating in a special club that is suppose to help us but really only causes more drama; am in some kind of trouble or something when I havent done anything wrong?????? Yes, normal people would probly brush this off and be like who cares but unfortunately I am one of those kinds of people that care. I work my ass off to keep in good standing at school and maintain good grades. I am a passionate person and when I am driven to do something I cannot just shut it off. Normally, this passion is diverted to work and that is how I got to where I was prior to this fucked up year but I have motivated myself back into kicking ass and taking names again. Yes, I know I have a loud mouth and I put my foot down about a lot of stuff. I am very strong willed, hardworking, and educated. I am not a child and I will not be treated like one. It is my God given right to speak my mind and ask as many questions as I so choose if I feel something isnt right or if I just want to.
Which brings me to my next topic, I was watching wife swap earlier to kind of calm down and not continually over think this whole thing, and this woman is on there that makes her children sign a citizen agreement in order to be considered a citizen (member) of the family EVERY SINGLE MONTH. They have some pretty strict rules and are lavished with very expensive shit if they maintain their citizenship. They are so brainwashed into thinking that this piece of paper is like gold or something that when the new wife who is crazy and messy and stuff tears it apart they try to tape it back together and ball their eyes out over it because that is there "trophy" for being perfect. I get how that could work but also I get how its completely fucking up those kids. This family is pretty well off but the daughter was crying for just some quality time with her father at the beginning of the show, and through out the whole show the mom to this fucked up family cannot even speak with the father of the other family without calling him a slob or fatty or some other kind of insult. She even got in a fighter stance against him when he told her she needed to leave cause she was just yelling insults at him. Then the next episode was about a family of (no joke) pirates from Oregon. Great idea, horrible follow through. If you are going to be a pirate, then really live like a pirate. Get a house boat or something LOL! Anyway, while they were on the swap the mom from the complete opposite very organized and healthy family had to pay like $459 while there to keep the lights and gas on. She pulled that money out of her pocket like it was nothing and paid those bills and fixed the disorganized mess that was their pirate abode'. On the other hand the pirate mom made the little girl of the organized family cry because she compared mopping a floor to slave labor and the little girl was like "No, we just like living in a clean house!" Which I get. I get both sides, the free spirited and easy going pirates and the organized and got their shit together family. I have lived and can relate to both families, well Ive never been a pirate but there was a very brief period of my life that I didnt care about anything and was so disorganized it was complete bullshit. I do not look at my life at that point as anything to be proud of though. And then there was this other family that were ubber religious and controlling of their children. They even controlled their 18 year old son on EVERY aspect of his life. The schedule for the whole family was written out weeks in advance and to the damn minute of what they should and need to be doing at all times. The kids werent allowed to watch any shows that were PG13 or considered in any way pornography. There is a limit to controlling children. And when the father was confronted about why he was controlling his children, he said because people with choices choose to smoke crack and sleep around with all kinds of people. I was like whatever! Good people choose to save lives, to make people smile, to go beyond what was asked of them. People with choices move mountains. Not every person with a choice makes the bad one. They are taking the free will away from their children and masking it with religion and forced contentedness. You must be happy that I have your entire world planned out and you will do everything I tell you to do and everything I tell you to do is the best thing in the world ever! No you crazy nazi! Parents make the wrong choices too! People are not perfect, having every minute of the day planned out isnt the besting thing in the world and forcing your children to fit into this tiny little christian mold of perfection is not going to end well. There need to be a balance people! Balance the light and the dark, the good and the bad, the mess and the organization. There need to be some slightly controlled chaos and never be content when you could be happy.
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