Robin Williams

Robin Williams was a great actor and a hilarious comedian. He was also a humanitarian and animal activist. He was a good man but he was a man. We all have our faults. We all have our demons. It is very sad that such a funny man could come to such a sad end but he is human and not even all the fame and money in the world can change that. I am very tired of seeing people try to use his death as a campaign for something. He died. He committed suicide. Leave it alone. He was human. I do not need to know ever gritty detail and I believe it is completely disrespectful to his memory and his whole family to try and pry so much. Like all these posts of pics of his kids at his funeral, come on, its a funeral. Back the hell off. Whats even more disturbing are these fake pictures that are going around of his "body". That isnt his body. That is some kind of bs and I refuse to look at it. People have no decency anymore. 

I am no stranger to the thought of suicide and I was even weak enough once to try and end it. I didnt. I woke the hell up in that instant and knew that I had more to do with my life and I was being completely dumb. Call it a miracle. Call it a vision from God or the Gods but I saw all that I could do and have been guided ever since then on the correct route to take. I have this intuition inside, this internal voice that tells me or gives me this feeling of "no hold off on doing that" or "this isnt the right way". I have gone through alot but I have been blessed through all of it. There are so many instances that could have been alot worse then they were. So many times I could have lost my life and because I waited on something, because I took the second option, because I chose to do something different I am still here.

Sitting on the bathroom floor thinking that I had nothing to offer this world, feeling the blood drip down my arms I was pathetic. It is pathetic to do that. Suicide is a permanent choice to a temporary obstacle. Hurting myself wasnt ever going to get anything done. No one taught me that. No shrink opened my eyes to that. I found it out. I know how I survived. There probably isnt anyone that would understand or believe the vision that I got or how I have been led every since then but that doesnt matter. I know. Before you choose that permanent choice, think about who is going to find you. What are you going to do to their mental well being? Who are leaving behind? Friends, family, pets that cannot survive without you, the chance of future children, ambition, goals, etc. 

Talk to someone you trust or reach out to a suicide hotline or listen to that internal voice. Open yourself up to the possibility of something better. Believe that this life can be worth a damn and it will be. But you have to get up off your lazy ass and make it something. You have to believe in yourself. You have to let go of all of those fucked up feelings of insecurity and all those words of others that dont fucking matter! They are not your life! You are your life! 

Some one calls you fat, fuck them! They arnt perfect. You feel fat then work out, eat right, see your doctor, get that shit under control and dont fucking worry about what is considered fat. You need to be healthy. Focus on being healthy. 

Someone calls you a slut, guess what you might be, or you might not be. It doesnt matter! It is your sex life and you choose who you want to be with and share that side of you. If you like to open your legs to a bunch of people, do you but be smart about it. If you are a virgin and someone calls you a slut, guess what? They most likely are the slut and you know your virtue isnt controlled by them. 

The ex love of my life called me a fat single mom with boundry issues. Am I contemplating death over that crushing statement? NO! Fuck him! I am not fat. I am not a twig. I am me and I am healthy and I love me. I know I have areas I can improve myself but they dont control my everyday. And yes I am a single mom, but how in the hell is that a bad thing? I had a kid and instead of staying with someone who wasnt right for me and cant handle a family, I did me and am taking damn good care of my daughter. Im proud to be a single mom and yes it would be great to just be seen as a parent or her mom, I will never see that as a bad thing. It means I stood up and took care of my responsibilities. 

DO YOU! BELIEVE IN YOU!