I am way less pissed off than I was earlier and now have about four dozen cookies on my kitchen counter.
I also have the overwhelming urge to cry.
I am not really sad about it because I could possibly have an even better job but I am sad because of the way that store made me feel. Like my old self again. When I work there, it is like I am stepping back in time when I looked my age, when I felt my age, when the world didnt make sense but it was better that way, and when my heart wasnt constantly broken. When I worked there before I looked healthier, happier, full of energy, and thinner. I would belly dance every single day and the stresses of everything else just melted away up there. It wasnt like that this go around. I will admit I was happier when I was in the store but everything else had changed. I felt the stress, I dont look amazing right now (I look exhausted), and I never get to see my baby cakes. I am a different person and maybe it is for the best because I am so different now. I need to find a new rhythm, a rhythm that is better suited for my current status.
It is still pretty fucked up that she de-friended me because of this nonsense. You stick by your friends no matter what. Especially, when I have tried and tried with her. I dont understand why people do this to me. I am not someone that can be walked all over. When I am nice, they see it as a weakness, when I care I am caring too much, and when I am selfless in the friendship they take a mile when Im giving an inch.
Well, enough about all that.
I read earlier that a cheerleading squad was disqualified from a competition due to the fact that one of their cheerleaders was a boy but dressed like a girl.
Okay, I have never been that thrilled with cheerleading but come the fuck on. It is 2011, about to be 2012 and they disqualified a cheerleading team because one of them was a cross dresser? That is wrong, totally and completely wrong. It is fucked up! How are we suppose to be all about equality and then bullshit like this happens? It makes no sense.
On to something else, I saw another article on the 2011 Over-the-top fast food items. It was slightly ridiculous and I am very happy to say that I ate only one item off of the list; only once. The Pizza hut Big Dinner Box. I am also happy that I really didnt eat that much of it because I cannot eat dairy which includes cheese. I also cannot eat anything that is fried. I wish that meant that I was a size eight but it doesnt.Everything else on the list just sounds like it is a heart attack waiting to happen. Like the Burger King Stuffed Steak house burger. Gosh, every single time the commercial came on for that, I just wanted to barf. It looks disgusting and has about 590 calories in just one sandwhich.
Then there is Dennys Maple Bacon Sundae. Wow, what was everyone's fascination with bacon this year? I am not a huge fan of bacon at all. I am not a fan of pork in general. I love the smell of it though. Cant complain about that. Putting it into a shake however? That is a tad bit stupid. Some people loved it though, put bacon into literally everything. More power to you but I would much rather have a healthy heart and blood flow.
Have you ever seen the british version of Skins, in all actuality they came up with it first and did a much better job but I am completely fascinated by the show. I am drawn in to the point that I could see myself as one of the characters. I use to be that free spirited, that careless. I do not miss it. Careless activities lead to stupidity and problems. I am however, inspired by the entire spectrum of the show and the emotions involved.
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