Happy New Years everyone!!
I have never been more happy to see a year go.
Last year at this time it was horrible and 2011 kept that going all damn year. Starting at the very fucking beginning when I almost died and had four surgeries to save my life.
Yes, I am thankful that I am alive and that although a whole bunch of bullshit happened this year (including my car getting flooded out with myself and my daughter in it) I have made it through. I made it through the surgeries. I made it through getting laid off, I made it through my car getting fucked up, I made it through all this bs with Cody, and I made it through to this New Years! I made it through this horrible year with broader and beautiful goals/dreams coming true for 2012.
I am back in school and working towards a goal that I made simply to make myself happy. I am through trying to make others happy or censoring myself for their benefit. I only have one life and life has shown me all year how easy it is to loose that one life or have it misguided into bad situations.
Regardless of what anyone has to say about 2012, I hope it to be an amazing year. And I do not believe that it will all end next December, maybe the world will change in some way or Aliens will come back but I truly do not believe that the world will end.
Okay, onto what happened at school the last few day.
Half of the class, the half that was there before my class started took their workshop finals and are leaving into the next stage, as if they were Juniors now. Like I am no longer a freshman, I am now a sophomore and we will be getting in a new batch of Freshman on Tuesday. It is awesome! Everyone was so amped up on Friday. We were all doing something different and trying to get everything done. Well everyone that was moving into the other class was. Everyone that is in my class was doing up do's and I made third place. =) Which is great, it means I dont totally suck but I was really hoping for first. I need more practice. After Ms. Kita got done with hers I knew I wasnt going to win. She didnt even win though! Another woman did that is a barber. She has never done an up do in her life before, the only reason she did so wonderful was because she did a sleek up do. Something you would see on a black woman any day of the week, it wasnt a formal up do and that was suppose to be the contest. Whatever, I know I did well.
28 Minutes till new years!!!!!
And I am sitting at home watching lost with nothing else to do. My munchkin is asleep and although it was great cuddling with her for a while, I am bored as hell. I dont want to say that I wish I was somewhere else because I dont. I wish I was doing something fun but I guess that will have to do something awesome next year. I know that some time in this new year I am going to start having some fun again. I will go out and have a blast once again and start having some damn fun. I know I am a mother and I have responsibilities. I am not saying that I am going to forget about that. She means more to me than anything else in the world and when it comes to her, I dont give a flying fuck about anything else. I am just saying that I am going to start having some fun for myself on a semi regular basis. I deserve it and I have big plans for this year.
1. I am going to drop 45 + pounds
2. I am going to have some damn fun
3. I am going to do everything I can for Alyssa
4. I am not going to let the past drive my future anymore
5. I am going to stay thankful for the blessings I have been blessed with, starting first and foremost with my daughter.
6. I am going to graduate with honors and job options.
7. I am going to continue my other degrees and graduate with them later. But start at the end of 2012.
8. I am going to make new friends and keep them/ become a better more attentive friend than I have been.
9. I am going to buy a new car.
10. I am going to challenge myself every single week to do something better, for the best, for change, for a new beginning, and for the best of my little families future.
Happy New Years!!!
Hope yall all had a great night and drive home safe =)
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